From the archives! “Infrastructures of Practice: Standards and Everyday Librarian Life “

This is the text of a talk I gave at UCLA’s Information Studies department back in 2015. I think I meant to someday do something with it but my dad had just died, then I got locked out, then cancer hit my family, then cancer hit me. I’m getting my writing back up and running… Continue reading From the archives! “Infrastructures of Practice: Standards and Everyday Librarian Life “

Carrot season

I watch my hands peeling carrots. I am watching my hands peeling carrots. We are out of apple season, the apples are soft. It is time for carrots now. We have a new peeler after the last got lost somewhere. It isn’t the thin aluminum peeler from my youth, not anymore. This one is heavy… Continue reading Carrot season

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Organization of American Historians conference

I had the enormous pleasure of chairing a panel at the OAH conference in Philadelphia last week. Here’s our abstract: I offered some framing of the conversation, which I’m sharing below. Given the structural conditions all of us face, any conversation about the production, organization, preservation, circulation, and meaning-making of “stuff” inside and outside the… Continue reading Organization of American Historians conference

Done

What would it mean to be done? We don’t know if the chemotherapy worked. We’ll know if I don’t get cancer again. We don’t know if the radiation worked. We’ll know if I don’t get cancer again. We don’t know if the hormone suppression is working. We’ll know if I don’t get cancer again. It… Continue reading Done

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Radiation #1

The way to be good at receiving radiation treatment is to stay still, to not move at all. They will tell you breathing is okay. They will tell you swallowing is okay. Both feel like violations alone in the dark on the bed, breathing and swallowing and staying still, not moving at all. They will… Continue reading Radiation #1

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Chemo #8

I have been looking at October 22nd since July 18th. But I have pain in my feet that is making standing and walking difficult. These are signs of chemotherapy-induced neuropathy that can be permanent in about 20% of patients. So the doctor and the people who love me but who are not enduring this wanted… Continue reading Chemo #8

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Chemo #5

How are you doing? or, more commonly How’s Emily doing? I have completed four rounds of AC chemo and one round of T. I have three T rounds to go. I will get those three rounds on September 24th, October 8th, and October 22nd. It is September 19th. It is really only about a month… Continue reading Chemo #5

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Untitled

I spend some of my time these days in various online support groups for people with cancer experiences like mine. Discussions aren’t about, like, how we’re all gonna die and maybe sooner than we thought, but about breast reconstruction choices: flat? Implants? Various genres of flaps? Etc. Some people defend their choices as the best… Continue reading Untitled

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Happy labor day!

It’s labor day! This is a time to be out in the streets or at the beach. I am at home on day 6 of my last AC chemo cycle. Side effects are super real, and mine are keeping me indoors. The chemo is making me wildly sensitive to the sun, like even more than… Continue reading Happy labor day!

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Chemo #3

I am two days out from my third AC infusion. A woman from my health insurance company called me today. She calls every couple of weeks. I am not sure why she is calling me. She asks me how I am doing and I tell her and my guess is that there is some evidence-based… Continue reading Chemo #3

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